1 terrible book out day.
It was an early sat afternoon. I was so excited and delightful of the fact i was going to see her..
This thought carried me thru yesterday n as well as my IPPT tis morning, i juz couldnt wait. Took Parry's car to bishan n decided, well, i shld giv her a little surprise n may hav lunch wif her, or if not, get someting n hav my meal there, haha.. Then i travelled down to novena, gav her a confirmation call n when i confirmed she was ard, i told her i'l call her back later. Then i took the escalator up..
'Hey~',
The next thing she knew, i was juz standing infront of her, all dressed up in my army u..
You look so funny, was the 1st thing she said. and she went on emphasizing how weird it was to hav me down here. Its as bad alrdy wat i am feeling, i didnt care how others felt, bt wat she did, had a significant impact on myself. Nonetheless, i kept it, changed the subject.
'Wat time did u last had ur meal?' and it was juz recently. So i tot, right, i'l see if i could bring the food over.. She rejected my idea, saying the boss might b dropping by, fine.. tis i understand. Then i asked her if she could stay out late tonight, she cant. She hav to get back right away coz her dad's angry n when i offered to send her back. She told me beta not at 1st. Then she snapped back when i asked her again, 'NO! i'l go back myself tonight, n u shld get goin..' i was lost wif words. stood ther for afew secs b4 i spoke, well.. tis feeling.. was a mixed feeling. i knw she wans me to listen to my mum n b a gd boy. Bt if i dun send her back tonight, it means the only time i can see her will b juz now n the next time is a wk later.. On top of that, she chased me away.. probably bcoz she didnt wan to discuss wat we were doing, n again, bcoz of weird appearance. i tot she had someting for me.. bt no.
That was wat i had waited 2 days to see, eagerly waiting n excitedly.. for her break to my heart.
It wasnt tat bad if i didnt consider her as my happiness, lik i get an unexplainable joy juz by seeing her, and wat she did for me afew days ago, those reli were nice. After wat she did, i asked her if she cared about my happiness? Yes, as a fren, n she cant giv me wat i wan as a gf, was wat she said. I told her many times i didnt care about if she doesnt lik me bcoz tis love i believe, is goin 2 b 1 sided bt i dun mind at all! i am goin 2 wait. Jac.. wat u did juz now reli tore my heart to piecies. After enduring so much in ns, my hands which i felt to cutting them away, n pride when insults flew, n having to cope wif loneliness, u added tis 1 in. The only ting that matters in life.. Seriously, i felt again life was meaningless juz now.. i side tracked to depression bt quickly pulled myself back.
Why do u hav to treat me lik tis..
This thought carried me thru yesterday n as well as my IPPT tis morning, i juz couldnt wait. Took Parry's car to bishan n decided, well, i shld giv her a little surprise n may hav lunch wif her, or if not, get someting n hav my meal there, haha.. Then i travelled down to novena, gav her a confirmation call n when i confirmed she was ard, i told her i'l call her back later. Then i took the escalator up..
'Hey~',
The next thing she knew, i was juz standing infront of her, all dressed up in my army u..
You look so funny, was the 1st thing she said. and she went on emphasizing how weird it was to hav me down here. Its as bad alrdy wat i am feeling, i didnt care how others felt, bt wat she did, had a significant impact on myself. Nonetheless, i kept it, changed the subject.
'Wat time did u last had ur meal?' and it was juz recently. So i tot, right, i'l see if i could bring the food over.. She rejected my idea, saying the boss might b dropping by, fine.. tis i understand. Then i asked her if she could stay out late tonight, she cant. She hav to get back right away coz her dad's angry n when i offered to send her back. She told me beta not at 1st. Then she snapped back when i asked her again, 'NO! i'l go back myself tonight, n u shld get goin..' i was lost wif words. stood ther for afew secs b4 i spoke, well.. tis feeling.. was a mixed feeling. i knw she wans me to listen to my mum n b a gd boy. Bt if i dun send her back tonight, it means the only time i can see her will b juz now n the next time is a wk later.. On top of that, she chased me away.. probably bcoz she didnt wan to discuss wat we were doing, n again, bcoz of weird appearance. i tot she had someting for me.. bt no.
That was wat i had waited 2 days to see, eagerly waiting n excitedly.. for her break to my heart.
It wasnt tat bad if i didnt consider her as my happiness, lik i get an unexplainable joy juz by seeing her, and wat she did for me afew days ago, those reli were nice. After wat she did, i asked her if she cared about my happiness? Yes, as a fren, n she cant giv me wat i wan as a gf, was wat she said. I told her many times i didnt care about if she doesnt lik me bcoz tis love i believe, is goin 2 b 1 sided bt i dun mind at all! i am goin 2 wait. Jac.. wat u did juz now reli tore my heart to piecies. After enduring so much in ns, my hands which i felt to cutting them away, n pride when insults flew, n having to cope wif loneliness, u added tis 1 in. The only ting that matters in life.. Seriously, i felt again life was meaningless juz now.. i side tracked to depression bt quickly pulled myself back.
Why do u hav to treat me lik tis..
posted by dont forget 01'06 at 5:45 pm
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