Isit gd or bad?

It was Sha's birthday yest.
I left her a msg wishing her the best n quite surprisingly, she replied me.
It juz said ther 'thanks alot.' And i suddenly felt so close to her.
I muz have been daunted to speak to her after that incident, bt i juz tot i shld send her tis msg.
And so i did. Nothin will change if i dun do a damn thing.
Well, though she's attached, i stil felt gd.

The 'feeling of being tgt' is reoccuring n smacking right into my head.
Suddenly i felt cold. Not sick, not dreadful.
Sha's presence could not even salvage matters.
I feel alone. And it happens all the time when my brain paints a pic of val.
Those flashbacks; memories..

A thousand times i said, 'Dun tink about those girls, they'l come, u wait.'
Bt things are harder to do then said u see..