Stupid excuses..

Things were going on smoothly, and we arranged to come out this fri, which is today. She has got work n am going to fetch her back from work, so its lik we'l have some time together that kind of thing.

Then i tot, mayb i could ask her over to my friends place to slp together, that will be lik how nice la, or even get her to come along tml's soccer match. At least spend time together in an unusal way.. its gona b quite cool, bt IF she's able to make it for both plans.. *Am crossing my fingers..

So today came and i msged her this morning to confirm about fetching her back later.

Me: 'Hey, so do u still wan me to fetch u back from work today?'
Val: 'Oh, i juz found out am not working today.'
Me: 'Oh ok, hmm.. then wat time will u b goin back n who'l b at home?
(I plan to rest at her place bcoz i haven been having enuf rest, n i clubbed the night before)
Val: 'Am not sure leh. Leaving sch about 2, yup.'

I was quite irritated la.. Like u dun mind me coming over, bt u juz keep telling me u duno who'l b at home, isnt it beta if u would final decision? since ur more familiar with who'l b home.. But nooo.. Anyway its always been her so i juz lik wasted 6 msges on confirming whether to go her place or not.'

Then she called me ard 2. Telling me she cant make it later..

Val :'Hey i cant make it later leh.'
Me: 'How come?'
Val: 'Am very tired.'
Me: 'You seriously cannot come out wif me? Coz am meeting my friends at 4, lik meet up for juz a while.'
Val: 'No.'
Me: 'How bout later?'
Val: 'Am goin to buy presents with my sec sch mates later.'
Me: 'Then after that?'
Val: 'Duno leh, my friends suggest to do a countdown for that friend, so it'l b past mid night.'
Me: 'Oh, then its ok la.. since ur friend's bday is once a yr kind of thing.'

But it wasnt ok. I had to find out u werent working, n stil wats suppose 2 b a date for us, ended up being cancelled. I really dun mind about the friend part, bt she could at least be more apologetic abit. She was lik am goin 2 buy presents, n wats with our date u promised me? Ur words mean nothing..

So i got over it after awhile. Then i hanged out wif jt n 2 other friends, caught a movie n went shopping wif them at vivo. While walking, it occured to me mayb after she count down wif tat friend, she could meet up wif me to stay over at 'shiyuan's ' place.. I got kind of excited, n so i called her..

Me: 'Eh val, wat are u doin? (Noisy sound at the back ground)'
Val: 'Oh, am at my violins lesson, u cannot hear the sound meh?'
(Excited was no longer there.)
Me: 'Oh, i'l call u back after the lessons.'

My mood at that point of time totally swang. U refused to meet me bcoz u said u were tired.. I din mind, n then u said ur goin 2 buy presents and THATS y i didnt mind about u not meeting me before 4, and now that i found out, you actually added this last mind violing lesson into ur schedule instead of coming out wif me. At that point of time i wonder how fragile our relationship was. What kind of relationship are we having? You actually placed a last min thing into our date which was suppose to and promised. I was damn disappointed. And all along you remain so calm..

Yea, i cannot say wat u did was wrong bcoz its ur life, n am not any1 that imp to you to make u change how shld react.. But wat i can say is your priority's are wrong.. If u choose to continue this way, ur goin to hurt somebody else in future. I really am upset, and i dont think its my fault for having think about you this way.