Isit it? Its not you, its me.
I have been tryin, trying tryin and trying to keep her off my mind..
Been thinking ALOT about whether to get together or not but i still cant make up my mind!
I knw u do not qns about wat love does.. In like if u love her, u knw she's really different from the rest, and somebody worth chasing. This girl is really that somebody in my life.. Haven loved somebody over again, still she makes me go crazy and sometimes i really love her to bits, so crazily in love that kind of thing.
Ok, why sometimes? its because of the way we'r together, its weird! We dun have much to say to each other, n sometimes to the extend of cracking my brain juz to dig out a topic.. We dun tok on the phone, n even when we tok, there's nothin much to say, just a 5-10min chat n thats it. There's juz not many common topics.. But i LOVE her. I duno y when we dun even have much to say, bt when we'r together, we'r so close, we hug n kiss (not french la). If she's lik this to the other guys, i din ask. But 1 thing that lays buried in my heart, i cherish her.
I write sooooo many things about leaving her, about the pain she brings to me and how i hate it. BUT i stil LOVE her. I knw its fuking nuts, but i duno WHY! Why is it we dun hav much to say, we lik different things, hav different thinkings and we'r so close together. Mayb its the way i project myself towards her.. We say sweet stuf, n tok about many deary matters..
The reason tt's stopping me is if we'r ever together (which i cant wait), is that we'r goin to quarrel alot more times, definitely it happened before when we were officially together, n we only lasted for a wk.. The ideas are totally different! We dun give in. Both unreasonable and we dun even tok on the phone, there's no LOVE! And the reason y we'r happy always together is because we dun really bother bout each other's life, we juz love the company of each other, we both love that. So if we were to step into each others life again, THAT will happen. Thats the reason.. I dun wan that break up n hurt and pain again. But i love and want to be together wif her deeply. Its ironic. So darn ironic and it SUCKS!
I dislike her. For some reason, she's insensitive to others feelings and all she care is the lord above. She's willing to sacrifice anything juz for 'him' and tat includes many things, am sure family is not a prob, since to her, the lord is more imp then that. She gave up her off's for him and even after telling her how imp it was for me to meet her, she didnt care. I hate that mentality, bt how much i hate it, its not going to change anything. Thats y everytime she tok about it, i try to bear. The silly thing is i even gave in to her n go for her church stuff, its CRAZY.. Its lik i would do anything for her that kind of thing? I even went to city hall late at night juz to fetch her home after work.. Mayb all i want is for her to be happy. So i gave in, even those guys she's been hanging out wif, in the past i would juz fuk off n msg her lik a month later after the 'heat' simmers down. But i actually msged her a moment later, and I CANT BELIEVE IT. Its so not ME!
That's y am soooo CONFUSED. But i juz realized something, we really do have diff personality right? And the possibility of breaking will be lik 80%.
Hmm.. actually am damn confident she'l accept me right? haha.. Its because of the feeling she gives me everytime, its like she's alrdy mine.. She calls me by dear and stuff, am her 'husband' and we'r so damn close we could even slp with each other and it wouldnt b weird.
*Sigh.. But perhaps this is the way how things shld b, loving some1 yet i cant b together with her..
I hate this feeling.
Been thinking ALOT about whether to get together or not but i still cant make up my mind!
I knw u do not qns about wat love does.. In like if u love her, u knw she's really different from the rest, and somebody worth chasing. This girl is really that somebody in my life.. Haven loved somebody over again, still she makes me go crazy and sometimes i really love her to bits, so crazily in love that kind of thing.
Ok, why sometimes? its because of the way we'r together, its weird! We dun have much to say to each other, n sometimes to the extend of cracking my brain juz to dig out a topic.. We dun tok on the phone, n even when we tok, there's nothin much to say, just a 5-10min chat n thats it. There's juz not many common topics.. But i LOVE her. I duno y when we dun even have much to say, bt when we'r together, we'r so close, we hug n kiss (not french la). If she's lik this to the other guys, i din ask. But 1 thing that lays buried in my heart, i cherish her.
I write sooooo many things about leaving her, about the pain she brings to me and how i hate it. BUT i stil LOVE her. I knw its fuking nuts, but i duno WHY! Why is it we dun hav much to say, we lik different things, hav different thinkings and we'r so close together. Mayb its the way i project myself towards her.. We say sweet stuf, n tok about many deary matters..
The reason tt's stopping me is if we'r ever together (which i cant wait), is that we'r goin to quarrel alot more times, definitely it happened before when we were officially together, n we only lasted for a wk.. The ideas are totally different! We dun give in. Both unreasonable and we dun even tok on the phone, there's no LOVE! And the reason y we'r happy always together is because we dun really bother bout each other's life, we juz love the company of each other, we both love that. So if we were to step into each others life again, THAT will happen. Thats the reason.. I dun wan that break up n hurt and pain again. But i love and want to be together wif her deeply. Its ironic. So darn ironic and it SUCKS!
I dislike her. For some reason, she's insensitive to others feelings and all she care is the lord above. She's willing to sacrifice anything juz for 'him' and tat includes many things, am sure family is not a prob, since to her, the lord is more imp then that. She gave up her off's for him and even after telling her how imp it was for me to meet her, she didnt care. I hate that mentality, bt how much i hate it, its not going to change anything. Thats y everytime she tok about it, i try to bear. The silly thing is i even gave in to her n go for her church stuff, its CRAZY.. Its lik i would do anything for her that kind of thing? I even went to city hall late at night juz to fetch her home after work.. Mayb all i want is for her to be happy. So i gave in, even those guys she's been hanging out wif, in the past i would juz fuk off n msg her lik a month later after the 'heat' simmers down. But i actually msged her a moment later, and I CANT BELIEVE IT. Its so not ME!
That's y am soooo CONFUSED. But i juz realized something, we really do have diff personality right? And the possibility of breaking will be lik 80%.
Hmm.. actually am damn confident she'l accept me right? haha.. Its because of the feeling she gives me everytime, its like she's alrdy mine.. She calls me by dear and stuff, am her 'husband' and we'r so damn close we could even slp with each other and it wouldnt b weird.
*Sigh.. But perhaps this is the way how things shld b, loving some1 yet i cant b together with her..
I hate this feeling.
posted by dont forget 01'06 at 1:49 am
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