Blood diamonds. Lost diamonds.
Things change so quickly don't they.. One moment things are going this way, and before u knew, it has actually gone away.
Kinda disappointed wif mel & val.
Its lik i hav always been wanting to go club wif mel, so i asked her the out on the eve of christmas and she said ok.. But juz on tat day alone, she told me she wun b able to make it, n so i said fine, bt y? And she had family dinner. Alrit, if its some excuse, it seem quite an understandable 1.. But on christmas itself, she went clubbing wif her friends. I mean, if she had intended to club wif me, she would hav called me down on christmas, sadly, nooo.. That mail really blew me, bt tinkin bout how she treated me as a friend..
Val's been working the whole dec, lik 5-6 days/wk. So she'l always find me during her off days and asking me to fetch her off from work. We always have great time together and we'r crazily close. But the funny thing is, we dun have much to say on sms, its funny how we click.. Alot of stuff came up n i suddenly grew so attached, i had thoughts of chasing her. I was confidently positive this would turn out well if i do ask her, but this confidence soon faded the next following wk.. I came to realize she's hanging out wif her 'friends', edwin her ex, dave n some other girl. Alrit, not tat am taking things to seriously.. But this 'friends' of her's are all twice her age pls. I only realized she has been hanging out at dave's place during christmas eve. Then the next day, lik 11+pm, i asked her wat she was doing? someting random.. And she told me again, she's goin over to dave's place to chill.. Ok? i asked her wat she did there tats so interesting? N she said drinking n chilling. And adding to tat, she said 2 days is nothin, she hav been doin it for lik a wk alrdy.. Lik wtf.. goin over somebody's place to drink n chill is not someting u always do right? I juz felt she's naive, bt i mean, its her choice of friends, i have no say in her life.. I swallowed tat chunk. Then again i found out this guy called bryan, who knew her at her work place, a customer. That night sending her back, he wanted to give her a gift, for no reason kind of thing la.. I was reli, i duno.. i din knw wat to say to her at tat moment.. i was practically stoning. She wanted to send me back, n then wait for tat bryan fellow to call, n then take a cab down to BukitBatok to meet him, then take a cab back.. Its lik wat a fuk plan la.. But again, its her life, i have NO say.
I used to b the kind who'l juz wait for the feelings to come back, then i'l take action.. But i actually asked her out on the new yrs eve.. i had a day's plan ahead for that alrdy. So i asked her on mon, n she told me she cant make it tis sunday, bcoz of some malay celebration thingy, then i asked her if she can take MC, coz its kinda imp date. So she said she'l try.. Ok? tues she took an off, but for wat? To attend some church dinner. ok, its ok.. Then she took ANOTHER off on thurs, some church stuff again.. So on sun she told me she cant make it. Precisely, u dun take 2 off's a wk n tink the boss will giv u a 3rd. Sure, church was imp, bt so was mine, i told her tat clearly, its an imp day n i reli wan to see u then. She disregarded my feelings, insensitive yet again. FORGET it la..
I wish to leave this forsaken memories behind n b decisicive. One of the closest girl friends doin this to me. Can they stil b considered close? Though they might not knw, bt they'v hurt me.
Kinda disappointed wif mel & val.
Its lik i hav always been wanting to go club wif mel, so i asked her the out on the eve of christmas and she said ok.. But juz on tat day alone, she told me she wun b able to make it, n so i said fine, bt y? And she had family dinner. Alrit, if its some excuse, it seem quite an understandable 1.. But on christmas itself, she went clubbing wif her friends. I mean, if she had intended to club wif me, she would hav called me down on christmas, sadly, nooo.. That mail really blew me, bt tinkin bout how she treated me as a friend..
Val's been working the whole dec, lik 5-6 days/wk. So she'l always find me during her off days and asking me to fetch her off from work. We always have great time together and we'r crazily close. But the funny thing is, we dun have much to say on sms, its funny how we click.. Alot of stuff came up n i suddenly grew so attached, i had thoughts of chasing her. I was confidently positive this would turn out well if i do ask her, but this confidence soon faded the next following wk.. I came to realize she's hanging out wif her 'friends', edwin her ex, dave n some other girl. Alrit, not tat am taking things to seriously.. But this 'friends' of her's are all twice her age pls. I only realized she has been hanging out at dave's place during christmas eve. Then the next day, lik 11+pm, i asked her wat she was doing? someting random.. And she told me again, she's goin over to dave's place to chill.. Ok? i asked her wat she did there tats so interesting? N she said drinking n chilling. And adding to tat, she said 2 days is nothin, she hav been doin it for lik a wk alrdy.. Lik wtf.. goin over somebody's place to drink n chill is not someting u always do right? I juz felt she's naive, bt i mean, its her choice of friends, i have no say in her life.. I swallowed tat chunk. Then again i found out this guy called bryan, who knew her at her work place, a customer. That night sending her back, he wanted to give her a gift, for no reason kind of thing la.. I was reli, i duno.. i din knw wat to say to her at tat moment.. i was practically stoning. She wanted to send me back, n then wait for tat bryan fellow to call, n then take a cab down to BukitBatok to meet him, then take a cab back.. Its lik wat a fuk plan la.. But again, its her life, i have NO say.
I used to b the kind who'l juz wait for the feelings to come back, then i'l take action.. But i actually asked her out on the new yrs eve.. i had a day's plan ahead for that alrdy. So i asked her on mon, n she told me she cant make it tis sunday, bcoz of some malay celebration thingy, then i asked her if she can take MC, coz its kinda imp date. So she said she'l try.. Ok? tues she took an off, but for wat? To attend some church dinner. ok, its ok.. Then she took ANOTHER off on thurs, some church stuff again.. So on sun she told me she cant make it. Precisely, u dun take 2 off's a wk n tink the boss will giv u a 3rd. Sure, church was imp, bt so was mine, i told her tat clearly, its an imp day n i reli wan to see u then. She disregarded my feelings, insensitive yet again. FORGET it la..
I wish to leave this forsaken memories behind n b decisicive. One of the closest girl friends doin this to me. Can they stil b considered close? Though they might not knw, bt they'v hurt me.
posted by dont forget 01'06 at 5:48 am
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