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Juz as i was about to let go, she came..

I decided to fuck care those gerls n b on my own.. I knw its alwys been on n off, finding gerls, giving up n the cycle continues bt i was giving it another chance, hoping someting will b different, but the results r always the same.. single, single, single.. friends told me to wait, wat gd to b in a r/s, u quarrel n unhappiness always bloom..

I dun care about tis unhappiness, ther is more sadness to none.. stoning eveytime, wow'ing at home, sch, gym, n those ger friends i got, i juz dun feel lik speaking to any of them.. serene made me all got up n sad.. mayb thers tis significant hope on her, tt's y am dwelling so deep. I'v turned down afew of my gerl's outing, n pushing it to a date that nev comes, and the reason was i din feel lik goin at all.. Am nt sure of tis change, or mayb its sch.. fyp, agenda tis week n tis term's slack.. to add on, the napfa tingy came in today, am simply running away from everyting, i knw, bt i dun wish to get started too, am so in the mood for lost.. The WORK is PILING. I'v always tot gymin might help me to forget stuff, thou they do, am stil as troubled.. Ther is juz to many work in sch, my leisure is compromised, ther is nothn bt com in my life.. N am forcing tis gerl ting into my life, juz to make myself difficult..

Actually i din knw i had so much unsettled matters, lol.. the fyp, agenda, tml's hw, outing, spending time wif family, wow wif frenz, sch work, napfa.. all these rumbling in my mind.. I tink i beta do the fyp tingy tml, at least someting, n slp early for today, hav a change in life basically.. everynight's 1-2a, slp n i feel so drained out..

Furthurmore judy asked me if i wanted work, n i told her no, then she asked me to accompany her.. i felt so bad rejecting her la, n valerie asked me to visit her either today or tml, i din go today, n i din wan to go tml either, bt i knw if i turn up, she'l b so damn happy.. I always do tis kind of tings juz to make them happy, bt it seems gerls lik bad boys to my kind.. i reli duno which line i shld stand on.. Now i juz wana turn back into that dao person, b more lik myself, maybe.. do all my work, n ya! y all of a sudden my gerls ask me out.. its so weird la, week after week. Then i wanted to go out wif mel tml, bt never did i expect her to get so mad at the nudge n *knock knock ting, she told me off n i was reli, reli, saddd.. bt i tot i disappointed her in the 1st place.. nvm, i guess i'l go tel her wat i plan bt its juz plan.. i'l b goin alone tml. damn am so slpy.. muz b the stupid bmd room also, crap..