ponder, unlik those times

Ponder under tis night sky,
the stars shine on thy..
Is it meant to be?
Then y is it so difficult for me..

Told u that day, i would prefer it to b on the 13, coz i wanted 14th to b a day out wif ur friends.. On the 13th, after all the celebration i'v planned for u, on the 12 o'clock sharp, i would wish u happy bday n present u ur present.. the only piece to complete the puzzle. Then i'l hav it delivered personally to ur doorstep the next morning wif breakfast.. All this juz so to head start a joyous n unforgettable bday, bt..

You told me.. its either 13 or 15th, since u cant make it on the 14th, cant make it on 13th coz u made ur fren promise to accompany you 2 buy hp.. N if it cant b these days then make it another day, besides its juz an outing.. jus an outing..

I wonder.. wonder.. wonder..
All these preparations.. efforts..
Wat is it reli for?
did i reli loved her? would tis juz b all for a fren? Y go thru so much?

ther is someting deep in me, i tink its depression, no, it isnt so serious.. bt, i do feel sad. As i hear the sound tracks of FSN, it gets beta coz they r all sad.. They r sad tt's y i feel it.. Anyway, tt show's reli sad.. y is ther the after sad effect, its making it harder for me to get about..