Celebrated. Confession. Confused.
Celebrated.
Spend our afternoon hanging out in MS, n watching a movie(Devil wear prada).. Then we slacked at esplanade library wher she told me a million tings, that was interesting.. n then we visited funan IT mall, coz she doesnt knw wher it was n she has to get ther tis week..
Wat i was shock was, she knew i was goin 2 giv her breakfast when i told her about meeting tml morning, n she even guessed my gift for her was a puzzle, how? i asked her on the monday tis week, wat she would lik to eat for breakfast.. n, i ever took her b4 to a puzzle shop, stil.. i gav her a hint when she asked me wat i was doing, so i said someting.. the next ting i know, she knew wat it was. So i told her ther is goin 2 b a surprise for her, actually many surprises, she only guessed afew of them.. I took her to chjimes, she didnt guessed it.. stil, it was her 1st time ther.. then we had dinner which cost up to $90.21, n i sent her home.. Then i told her bout goin her place tml morning, delievering hotcakes, we had a small debate whether i shld go n i won, haha.. So the most surprising part has come.. I left her a letter inside, n it wrote i love you. It wasnt plan to b so rushed, i did wan to tel her during our dinner, or at her void deck.. then i skipped the dinner 1, n decided to tel her at the void deck, bt crap.. ther were seriously so many ppl, then 1 lift came n left, so we when the 2nd 1 came, i didnt wan 2 hold her back, bt then again, i was pondering whether i shld keep that letter, without knowing, i didnt hold her back.. So tt option was over. then i msged her n we toked later tonight..
Confession.
'It might b juz a fling', 'am not the kind of gerl u'l lik', 'promised her friends she didnt wan a bf'.. Those r the things she said. I wasnt reli sure of myself, lik.. its true i like her, bt.. not in crazily in love wif her. tt's y i couldnt defend myself when she said it was a fling.. secondly, i am pretty sure she's some1 i'l lik, bcoz not only do i remember almost anyting she say, bt her actions affect me alot, in tis case, am sensitive to her actions.. Lastly, i understand how it would b lik if she suddenly hav a bf n all her frens will judge her words in future. Bt, as i told her, tings change, its not fair to her n myself, tis is if she reli wans to b wif me, other than tt, it stands..
So we discussed n i reli didnt wan to tel her oh, ok.. i fought, n i fought hard 2 change her concept, bt i understand its difficult, she suddenly knew some1 loved her, n the next ting, he wans to b her bf, i knw its hard 2 accept.. furthurmore she said she loses interest easily, tts y she didnt wan to try, bt i told her ther is no result if u dun try at all.. So it comes back to whether i reli mean it when i tel her to love me. Though deep down in my heart, i knw its quite vague.. bt, i believe she means someting to me.. So we ended off wif if she ever changes her mind, tel me.. i'l wait for her. bt of coz not forever.. she knws that too..
Actually, it doesnt make any diff, i guess even if its a yr later, i'l stil b the same old steadless, loner me, JT said it is kickless if we ever wan 2 find a stead.. If it was kickless, i wouldnt b lookin for 1 now, 3 n a half yrs of waiting.. wait, wait, wait.. wait.. wait.. wait..
Anyway i knew i was right about judy, she reli couldnt keep secrets afterall.. Everyting ard me is disappointing.
Spend our afternoon hanging out in MS, n watching a movie(Devil wear prada).. Then we slacked at esplanade library wher she told me a million tings, that was interesting.. n then we visited funan IT mall, coz she doesnt knw wher it was n she has to get ther tis week..
Wat i was shock was, she knew i was goin 2 giv her breakfast when i told her about meeting tml morning, n she even guessed my gift for her was a puzzle, how? i asked her on the monday tis week, wat she would lik to eat for breakfast.. n, i ever took her b4 to a puzzle shop, stil.. i gav her a hint when she asked me wat i was doing, so i said someting.. the next ting i know, she knew wat it was. So i told her ther is goin 2 b a surprise for her, actually many surprises, she only guessed afew of them.. I took her to chjimes, she didnt guessed it.. stil, it was her 1st time ther.. then we had dinner which cost up to $90.21, n i sent her home.. Then i told her bout goin her place tml morning, delievering hotcakes, we had a small debate whether i shld go n i won, haha.. So the most surprising part has come.. I left her a letter inside, n it wrote i love you. It wasnt plan to b so rushed, i did wan to tel her during our dinner, or at her void deck.. then i skipped the dinner 1, n decided to tel her at the void deck, bt crap.. ther were seriously so many ppl, then 1 lift came n left, so we when the 2nd 1 came, i didnt wan 2 hold her back, bt then again, i was pondering whether i shld keep that letter, without knowing, i didnt hold her back.. So tt option was over. then i msged her n we toked later tonight..
Confession.
'It might b juz a fling', 'am not the kind of gerl u'l lik', 'promised her friends she didnt wan a bf'.. Those r the things she said. I wasnt reli sure of myself, lik.. its true i like her, bt.. not in crazily in love wif her. tt's y i couldnt defend myself when she said it was a fling.. secondly, i am pretty sure she's some1 i'l lik, bcoz not only do i remember almost anyting she say, bt her actions affect me alot, in tis case, am sensitive to her actions.. Lastly, i understand how it would b lik if she suddenly hav a bf n all her frens will judge her words in future. Bt, as i told her, tings change, its not fair to her n myself, tis is if she reli wans to b wif me, other than tt, it stands..
So we discussed n i reli didnt wan to tel her oh, ok.. i fought, n i fought hard 2 change her concept, bt i understand its difficult, she suddenly knew some1 loved her, n the next ting, he wans to b her bf, i knw its hard 2 accept.. furthurmore she said she loses interest easily, tts y she didnt wan to try, bt i told her ther is no result if u dun try at all.. So it comes back to whether i reli mean it when i tel her to love me. Though deep down in my heart, i knw its quite vague.. bt, i believe she means someting to me.. So we ended off wif if she ever changes her mind, tel me.. i'l wait for her. bt of coz not forever.. she knws that too..
Actually, it doesnt make any diff, i guess even if its a yr later, i'l stil b the same old steadless, loner me, JT said it is kickless if we ever wan 2 find a stead.. If it was kickless, i wouldnt b lookin for 1 now, 3 n a half yrs of waiting.. wait, wait, wait.. wait.. wait.. wait..
Anyway i knew i was right about judy, she reli couldnt keep secrets afterall.. Everyting ard me is disappointing.
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