Chp 1

'Everytime i tell myself to focus on my reading, i always forget. N bcoz of tt, i nev get to study for long hrs. I detest admitting myself slow lik others bt e truth was ther tt i cant deny of. I was slow.. Slow to understand tings, slow to understand myself; my needs, my body, my feelings n watever i am. Sometimes insults hurled directly at me n ther's no way to defend it. So in order to get over it, i get hit by it. That scar to my memory, is hurting.. especially whenever my studies are mentioned, i am juz as helpless.. Then everytime i tried to work hard.. But other then studies was my body, i failed.. i tend to fall seriously ill the following days of training.. Its nt hard effort for a period anymore, bt rather its a balance of determination on the long scale. I always begin to understand more as i watch animations, its asif part of life will always b revealed, n thus build up tt sense of confidence in myself.'