contemplation
Ther was tis long pause as i tot of e efforts i put into that maths paper.
Failure it shows. 'U r a failure nt only in studies, in motivating urself, u r therfore, a loser..' I put aside al e unwanted n it keeps comin, smacking right into my face. Slowly i tink again about genius bein genius, ther's no point in trying harder bcoz life's juz lik tt.. no matter how well u do, someone's always better then u, n so, y dun u giv up.. forfeit the game before some1 puts ur name to shame. tt's when i tel myself if i giv up, everyting's goin 2 b worse.. Bt tt's e point! when i decide to giv myself 1 more chance, tings wil start happenin n stop me from my goal, n i feel so low when tings aint right, n i lose my motivation.
tis account is half written before my exams, n now am finishing it up.
Nt ashamed of wat i did, rather i need to giv myself more time to change.
I finally came down to studying. I wanted to do tis alone n tis is a task i giv myself, nt to let the others look down on me. i knw am stupid, slow n furthurmore, tis course is totally nt to my likin, bt i hav no choice, RESULTS r wats written n my future n status r based on it. i've no choice bt to go thru tis torment..
Of all the hard work i put through for maths, its all gone down to waste.. A complete waste! i studied 2 weeks for it, went to see Mrs Quek 4 times.. did my revision n tutorial.. my aim was to get at least 70% so i'l push the pass failing paper up, bt i'l rather choose to pass the paper now.. barely ther, nt even at the 60% mark.. am wasted. how? y? wat can i do? there's nothin else bt wait.
I did it, "study to hell'06".
Failure it shows. 'U r a failure nt only in studies, in motivating urself, u r therfore, a loser..' I put aside al e unwanted n it keeps comin, smacking right into my face. Slowly i tink again about genius bein genius, ther's no point in trying harder bcoz life's juz lik tt.. no matter how well u do, someone's always better then u, n so, y dun u giv up.. forfeit the game before some1 puts ur name to shame. tt's when i tel myself if i giv up, everyting's goin 2 b worse.. Bt tt's e point! when i decide to giv myself 1 more chance, tings wil start happenin n stop me from my goal, n i feel so low when tings aint right, n i lose my motivation.
tis account is half written before my exams, n now am finishing it up.
Nt ashamed of wat i did, rather i need to giv myself more time to change.
I finally came down to studying. I wanted to do tis alone n tis is a task i giv myself, nt to let the others look down on me. i knw am stupid, slow n furthurmore, tis course is totally nt to my likin, bt i hav no choice, RESULTS r wats written n my future n status r based on it. i've no choice bt to go thru tis torment..
Of all the hard work i put through for maths, its all gone down to waste.. A complete waste! i studied 2 weeks for it, went to see Mrs Quek 4 times.. did my revision n tutorial.. my aim was to get at least 70% so i'l push the pass failing paper up, bt i'l rather choose to pass the paper now.. barely ther, nt even at the 60% mark.. am wasted. how? y? wat can i do? there's nothin else bt wait.
I did it, "study to hell'06".
posted by dont forget 01'06 at 5:33 pm
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